"I Wrote a Book" (poem)

I wrote a book –
I’m on my way!
Oh not so fast,
They all do say

You have so much
You still must do -
Like read and edit
Till your face turns blue!

My eyes are burning
From slashing this thing -
It’s for my own good -
Success it will bring

‘Cuz to put forth a book
Without being supreme
Would spell certain death
For my life's one true dream

Rejections will come,
But I have to be strong -
To give up now
Would be totally wrong

It’s taken too much
To get to this spot -
I’m closer than ever
Give up?  I will NOT

So it’s back to the novel
To edit again
As I re-write this thing
With my dreaded red pen

One day I will see
My book on a shelf
And I will take pride
In my work & myself!

The Frosty Tree...

Ice covers the trees...each branch & tip is beautiful in its own way. I watch the ice melt ever so slowly off of one tiny branch as the water drops slowly onto the snowy ground. The air is crisp & cool. I can see my breath. It's so quiet & pure...no cars passing by, no people around...just me and the tree. The snow is so bright, almost blinding, yet a beacon in my path...what a treasure to behold...Mother Nature at her finest

My Lunchtime Companion...

The little gray squirrel...my lunchtime companion...he floats & abounds across the grass, the parking lot, up in the trees...all by his lonesome, yet always there when it's time for me to find solace & peace from work.  Is he there just for me?  Once, I took it as a sign when I really needed help....an answer, of sorts...and he gave it to me, in his own way.  He made me smile and think.   We are at one...separate, yet together to share our time.

The Agony of Defeat, but the Thrill of Victory!

OK...so last night, I got one email back already regarding a submission of one of my poems to an online literary magazine.  The agony of defeat...they thanked me for the poem but said they were going to pass...as the pain of the rejection set in, I had ANOTHER email telling me that I won 2nd place in one of the poetry contests I entered!!  Second place out of 22 entries.  Soooo close, but still a victory, considering it was my first time entering any of my work.  I'll take it :)

POEM SUBMISSIONS & CONTEST

So, I entered my first poetry contests today, as well as submitting poems to several online literary magazines...let's hope I haven't jinxed anything by posting about it!  Stay tuned...

"MY DREAMS"

The man in my dreams

Now I know it was you

Didn't think he was real

But that just wasn't true

The angels looked down

And brought him to life

In the form of my David

To end all my strife

Any doubts that I had

Are now gone for good

We are truly in love

So it's all understood

Oh what a feeling

To be so in love

It is simply a blessing

From the heavens above

I feel so at ease

When I am with you

I trust you completely

But without you I'm blue

There's an emptiness here

Only you can fill

And I know that someday

Again soon you will

Until that time

You're still in my heart

So no matter the distance

We are never apart

"WINTER WAVES"

I walk along the beach at night

With the cold, wintry

Gusts of wind

Blowing through my hair

I am all alone on the sand

Thinking about you...

As I peer out into

The ocean’s waves so Strong

They remind me of you

You were always so

Courageous…

Strong…

Stubborn

Exactly like those winter waves

Clapping against my feet

Determined to win & never be wrong

Always wanting to be the strongest...

Now that you’re gone

I can see the resemblance you have

To the ocean...

I never noticed it before

Because I was too busy being consumed

By love that I overlooked your many flaws

I see them now…

The Impatience…

The Anger…

And sometimes even the insecurity

But I still love you

"FRIENDS UNSEEN"

Friends unseen
Yet friends so close
We start up our PC's
For that huge daily dose

We crave that connection
The bonds become strong
Walls do come down
That were up for so long

We may not be seen
But the love is still there
More than in person
Some DO really care

Sharing thoughts...our lives...
Silly things and bad...
Even posting pictures,
Even showing we're sad

Behind that screen
Is a friend for life
They will be there always -
Through the good & the strife

"BEYOND THE WALL"

I wrote this many years ago, as I began dating my husband & had a huge wall up to protect me...in the end, there was no need :)


Beyond the wall

She’s built so high

Is a woman who feels

And yes, she does cry

She appears so strong

As she holds him at bay

But she’s really thinking

“I hope he will stay”

She can’t let him in

Although he does try

She’d be too exposed –

My God, she would die!

For in her head,

That Voice drones on –

Saying over and over

“One day he’ll be gone”

Then where would she be

With her heart on the floor

Rejected and hurt

And alone once more

“Don’t let down your guard!”

It screams and it shouts

As the other voice struggles

“Stop having these doubts!”

So they fight inside her

Day after day

Each of them sometimes

Getting their way

She wants so badly

To let go and feel

All the magic and joy

Of a love that is real

But she’s only a Pawn –

The one who hides

In the corner away

From these battling sides

She is weak and frail

So the others must stay

In order to keep

All that pain locked away

Beyond the wall

Is a Garden of Fear

Where they all reside

So comfortably here

First there is Anger –

The one who Explodes

At the drop of a hat

As her inside erodes

Next there is Need –

With a hole in its soul

That can never be filled

Though that is her goal

Then there’s Control –

Who must have the power

She’s strong and stubborn

So she guards the tower

For once she was helpless

It can’t happen again

Now she’s in control

And determines just when

Sadist dwells here

Along with the rest

She’s vindictive and cold

When she’s at her best

She must punish others

Like she used to be

Make Them all feel Hurt

Maybe then they will see

Self-Hate is present

To remind her she’s dirt

To perpetuate the pattern

And continue the hurt

So that’s just a taste

Of what does occur

Beyond that great wall -

They’re all part of her